So much support

Thanks everyone for the super kind emails and messages about my soul searching. I'm currently sitting at a Panera with my cute little computer getting ready to hunker down. I've decided I need to try and write something everyday to help build myself back up. And I'm going to continue reading nearly every night.

I went to Borders on Monday and wrote a page. It took me 45 minutes and I don't know if it's any good, if it can develop into anything or if it's just going to be an exercise type page. But I wrote.

I haven't decided what kind of writing I'm going to focus on. I was never going to be a novelist - I was always a short story writer. I've been thinking about writing children's stories (like suggested by a dear friend), or even a song. I don't want to assume I'm so all-knowing enough to write non-fiction....but even just for my own I might try that.

I came to the realization the other day that I have healed somewhat from my infertility battle. I found out a few of my friends (not close) are pregnant or had had a baby and I was truly happy for them. There was no fake front or anything I needed to pretend about - it didn't make my heartache in anyway. I was truly happy for them. It felt great! I hope all my friends get to this point in their lives. Especially those who have endured such a long wait to build their families.

Again thanks for the support - and my goal to write means you will probably be hearing from me more often. Maybe if I write something I feel is worthy, I'll post it for all my supporters to see :)