Best posting to date

I can't believe the time has finally arrived when I can post about ---- GOING TO THAILAND! Yes, we actually received our travel call this morning. The phone call was so surreal, I was so calm and probably made Andrea a little nervous. I just had to sit down and process it - but then I called Sam. When I actually repeated the information to him, told him the good news, it hit me. I cried and smiled and it actually hit me - our baby's coming home.

I also found out today that my charm bracelet was ready for pick up at the jewelry store. I had just ordered the new charm for Jesse (engraved with name and birthday) - the timing was amazing. I couldn't pick it up fast enough and I'm sure I will not take it off until at least after Mother's Day.

I'm more calm than I thought I would be and I think it's because I got a handle of my emotions last week. Just when I thought I was at the end of my rope, I find my inner strength and realize I can survive....just to find out I'm nearly done waiting!!!!

Oh gosh, I haven't even mentioned any of the details :) We'll be in Thailand for the June 13 meeting. Timing is perfect in terms of Ian. School will be done and my mom won't be working, plus all Ian's commitments will be over - leaving a carefree schedule. I won't be worrying if he's made it to school or soccer.

I called my family members earlier today and tonight when my sister called me to talk some more the first things she said was "It's nice to hear you answer the phone and be happy." I want to cry just thinking about it. I am happy - I'm really happy and I'm so grateful for all the support I've gotten when I wasn't. That's what means the most to me, what brought me out of the darkness, and what will carry me through my life.