Happy Holidays

Wow - has it been that long?

I know I've been very neglectful of my blog but I hadn't realized it had been that long. I think about posting and think about things to share with the bloggisphere but it never seems to get done. There is swim practice to drive to, homework, TV to watch, books to read....I'd say house to clean but I think you know me better than that :) Anyway - it's been a busy few months.

Ian is full blown in the swim season. He's been doing great at his meets and getting better at his strokes. His coach and I feel he's a championship butterflier waiting to hatch. He's still getting down the coordination of the stroke but he's upper body strength shows much promise. He's also a great backstroker, as long as he doesn't slow down near the wall :) Ian is also doing great in the first grade.

Jesse is also doing well. He's finally marching into school with his head held high and no longer needing to be handed off to the teacher. He's still very serious in class and sticks close to his one friend, Daniella, but his teachers adore him so what more could I ask for?

It's actually once again Jesse that has driven me to post. Not really him specifically but an issue dealing with his adoption. Around this time every year I write a letter to his birthmother. Not really a holiday type thing, but I want to make sure there is something new in his folder in time for his birthday, just in case. This year I'm having a hard time getting started. Before, it was very easy for me to share him with her - let her in and treat her as an insider. But this year I feel very possessive of him. I don't want to share him. I know that sounds silly because it would be amazing to know her and for him to know her, but I all of a sudden don't want to be to inviting. It makes no sense.

It really has been an amazing year. The boys have grown so much and become even closer as brothers. It's such an honor to be their mom and watch them grow. It's fun to imagine the men they are going to be.